Give Me Air!

by Joan C Webb on January 27, 2010

Around 2:30 this morning I finished reading Mary DeMuth’s new book, Thin Places, a heart-wrenching memoir of abuse, imperfection, and healing. (More about that in a future blog!) Then after going back to sleep for awhile, I worked in the Mending the Soul workbook by Celestia Tracy (following-up on classes I took last week about helping abuse & trauma survivors.) Later I listen to clients’ angst tinged with hope. Heavy.

Truth is: We’re all wounded–and our pain oozes out in strange ways. We feel squelched sometimes and need AIR. Reminds me a journal entry I shared in my devotional book, It’s a Wonderful (Imperfect) Life.

Journaling reality: “I do what I assume I should while inner and outer bullies dictate how I ought to be: You’re selfish, Joan. Try harder. Get it all done. He’s mad at you. You should do more. You gotta look better. You don’t need rest. I feel confined to a narrow box with little space for developing creativity, intimacy or individuality—all the things I long for.

Get me out!: After years of living this way, I feel raw anguish that I push down–deeper. If I keep busy enough, I don’t have to deal with the disappointment or hurt. Then it backfires and I crash. “Help, Lord,” I cry. “I can’t do it anymore.” And wow, He meets me in my mess.  Eventually I read Psalm 31:7-8* and my exhausted heart smiles. I don’t have to stay in the box!

Wide-0pen spaces: JCW arms out websize Car trip-Canyon Lake-4-5-09Now every time I read His promise to set my feet in a spacious place, I smile—inside and out. I want to tell any woman (or man) who feels trapped that God will open the lid of your box and take you to a wide-open space. It’s a process, yet He wants to release you from the limitations of your pain and misconceptions and set you in a place of expanded joy.

Making It Personal: What’s your spacious place look like to you? Consider gathering your courage and asking God to take you there.

* “I will be glad and rejoice in your love, for you saw. . . the anguish of my soul. You have. . . set my feet in a spacious place.” Ps. 31:7-8

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Denese B. January 28, 2010 at 10:39 am

Joan,
Another favorite scripture regarding “a spacious place” that I keep close. Job 36:16 “He is wooing you from the jaws of distress to a spacious place free from restriction, to the comfort of your table laden with choice food.” I just love that God woos us from the jaws of distress, he coaxes us away from those places of “comfortable discomfort” so that we can be free. And hmmmmmm, I bet those nourishing goodies he offers us may be food of a different sort than we might automatically assume… Our God is amazing!!!

Joan C Webb January 28, 2010 at 1:43 pm

Thanks for your “spacious place” words. :-)

Diane Markins January 28, 2010 at 1:57 pm

I’m in my spacious place. Just when I start to get a little discouraged about the slow process of publishing or gaining ground as a speaker I get an email note or comment on my blog like the one I got yesterday from “Amy”…she was distraught and in severe need of encouragement. The Lord led her to my words, we connected, and it truly seemed to make a difference. That’s joy in it’s truest form to me. I don’t have to have success by any standards other than offering comfort to a (previous) stranger because I know the Lord is pleased and saying, “Well done.”
Thanks for your post Joan.

Lynne January 28, 2010 at 4:57 pm

Hi Joan
This excerpt from your book is my favorite devotional to date – I already had it earmarked in the book.

To know that God sets my feet in spacious places and takes me out of the box – wow! So freeing. The strange part is that I can still be very busy, maybe even busier, but I don’t feel trapped, I can breathe.

Sharon Seeberger January 30, 2010 at 1:18 pm

My son just gave me a one-liner his manager taught him, “Prospect where your feet are.” While specifically related to getting clients, I liked that image that wherever i am standing, there can be a reason for me to be there – because as you quote, God has truly “set my feet in a spacious place.” Thanks for that reminder Joan – that I can trust that where my feet are, there is God awaiting and surrounding me with all his infinite love and yes, space.

Joan C Webb February 2, 2010 at 1:58 am

Hi Sharon, thanks for sharing your one-liner from your son. Love your comments.
And thanks for your affirming words about the devo, Lynne.
Diane, LOVE that you’re in your spacious place. I’m smiling here!

Denise Miller Holmes February 3, 2010 at 2:45 am

I have been feeling lately like one part of my life is in a spacious place, another is in a box. My life is not perfect. Surprise! I’m learning to accept that. Thanks, Joan, for your post.

Joan C Webb February 6, 2010 at 6:22 am

Hi Denise,
Sometimes Life is a push-pull, isn’t it? Thanks for your comments.
Relief blessings,
Joan

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